I'd rather play at hug o'war

Maps of Places That You've Never Been by inlovewithnight
(Brothers & Sisters. Kevin-centric, of course. Mild kind of spoilers for the "Family Day" episode, I suppose.)

Kevin isn't sure if you can ever really grow up as long as you can always go home.

"I think faith must be a nice thing. A reassuring thing." He glances up at the candle, melting slowly to the bottom of its glass cup, tiny flame bobbing and weaving above the wax. "But if Dad is still around somewhere, if you could tell him that we miss him...that I miss him. And that I wish...I..." He looks away again. "I wish he hadn't done all the things he did, but I still love him." He shakes his head, his throat closing tight and catching his voice. "And I wish he was here."

This is so perfectly, wonderfully Kevin and everything I love about the Walkers. It ably captures the grief of finding out your father isn't the man you've loved and admired your entire life. About reconciling the truth and still loving him.

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In other news, I got a speeding ticket last night. I was driving through Ngoc's old neighborhood, which I KNOW is a speedtrap, but I was feeling like shit (I also broke the fast due to the whole feeling like shit) and had blessed food in the car and wanted to get home ASAP. Fortunately, I don't have to go to court. The cop gave me this envelope thingie so I can send in my payment and request defensive driving. Whoo!

And since Mom got a ticket back in November for speeding in Bellville, we can go to defensive driving together. Whoo squared!